Remembering Biji

Going down memory lane, Nidhi Chawla remembers her grandmother on what would have been her 102nd birthday. 

 

My Biji


I close my eyes and can see two wrinkled hands with long fingers, adorned with a gold bangle each. I can see that old yet beautiful face with sagging skin. I can see a torn earlobe and the other ear with a gold earring. I can see the salt and pepper hair braided in a plait. A frail body all of 97 years that represented my grandmother ‘Biji’ is no longer with us. However so overpowering was her personality that even four years after her departure it still lingers in our lives and binds the whole family together. Today is her birthday and I felt like remembering her and sharing these cherished memories with anyone who is willing to read.

Biji lived a life of discipline, compassion and independence. Discipline of waking up at 4am for ‘Sandhya’ or meditation followed by another session in the evening. Independence exerted through her insistence on carrying out her daily chores all by herself. Compassion shown through her love for everyone around her and her donations in cash or kind for the needy and noble causes.

My Biji

I remember some of the stories that she told us as children, which I today tell my daughter. Stories teaching us about honesty, sharing and caring, stories with a moral lesson. I remember her getting nostalgic when we used to prod her for stories from her past. She shared some of them and forgot so many of them. Story of her being a shy girl who didn’t want to go to school because she thought she was not good-looking; story of her falling off the terrace deep in the night as she could not find her way to the stairs in the darkness; story of a girl with a well-off childhood getting married into a family of limited means yet adapting so gracefully to her new life; her eternal bonding with her mother-in-law whom she addressed as ‘Bhabhiji’, anecdotes about her children – of my bua slapping a guy who was following them around; my father toppling over freshly boiled milk and getting burnt; of my uncle who stayed behind in Pakistan during partition to appear for his 10th standard exams; of my uncle who in his pursuit for God started visiting a ‘guruji’s kutiya’. I will always remember these stories and would pass them down to my daughter if I can. Just like I will always miss those warm lips on my cheek, those arms that hugged me tight and those hands that always blessed me.

I will always miss and remember my Biji.

Her parting words at the hospital before she lost consciousness sum up her life beautifully:

“Saare jag ko maan loon main apna parivar

Raag-dwesh rakhoon nahin karoon sabhi se pyar

Raag- dwesh rakhoon nahin karoon sabhi ko pranam”

Translated in English it would mean:

Let me take the whole world as my own family,

Let me love everyone and be without attraction or repulsion.

Let me bow to everyone and be without attraction or repulsion.”

She repeated this for 10 minutes or more, then chanted ’OM’ for some time before becoming quiet.

 

Nidhi Chawla is a Silvertalkies team member.

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Nidhi Chawla

Nidhi Chawla is the co-founder of Silver Talkies. She loves spending time with her daughter and enjoys reading, traveling and sketching.

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Anilkchawla

17 Nov, 2011

Dear All, Now that the poem is mentioned and as I read it again, I find the last line of the third paragraph should instead read like this:" Beware, don't be a fool;for their Lord is there taking care." This would rhyme better with the previous line's last word poor. Thank you dear, Anil The words that she used to say are," Ghareeb ko mat sata, ghareeb ro dega, uska malik sunega to tujhe jadh se hi kho dega." A very severe warning there. My God!

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Neenu

16 Nov, 2011

Dear Anil uncle, You have poured over all of your emotions through this lovely poem. It seems as if you have cut open your heart to express each & every feeling. Thanks for sharing!

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Anilkchawla

26 Sep, 2011

Biji died long ago! Many many years ago in fact! I learnt this from my friend ET* today. That is called dying before you die. When you have given up all psychological resistance to what is or happens, that is called the death of the ego. When your ego has died that is called dying before you die. This comes from complete surrender to what is. The non-resistance that Biji practiced was characterized by the words that were always on her lips: “Hukam Razaeen Chalana, Nanak likhiya Naal.” These are the words of Guru Nanak Devji which mean that ‘we go according to the wishes of the Lord; O Nanak know that to be your destiny.’ So where is the place of ego then saying: ‘no it should have happened this way, no it shouldn’t have happened’- the usual resistance patterns that we employ. When the surrender operates in your life, no event or happening can induce negativity in you. Because you have already decided to live with ‘what is’ and not fight with what is because what is, it already is. It is madness to keep resisting it mentally. Especially when you full well know that you can’t do much to change the situation. Most old people continue to complain about the happenings of life as they hear them. They haven’t gone into the acceptance mode even when they know they can’t do much to alter the situation. There is a time for action, there is a time for acceptance. One has to see that thin line always. So when that madness of mental resistance goes, what is left is the indescribable peace. And when peace is there, love crops up automatically in that fertile ground. And that is how everyone recognized Biji as, an embodiment of love for everyone. The reason was surrender, no argument with what is and rather letting it be, accepting it heartily even though it was something so called a bad happening in the usual sense of the world. • ET= I was listening to something by Eckhart Tolle today, when I realized what stage Biji must be in. • Eckhart Tolle is the author of “ The Power of Now” , “ A New Earth-Awakening to your life’s purpose.” and “ Stillness Speaks.”

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Preeti Jain

24 Sep, 2011

kids are fortunate who are raised with grand parents around.

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Sanjeev Sabhlok

22 Sep, 2011

Thanks, so much, Nidhi. Biji was the best. None can come close. Sanjeev

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Anilkchawla

17 Sep, 2011

The Immortal Biji You taught me Mom to be a good and caring person, Not to steal from another and not hurt anyone. You taught me to live on my hard work and make progress, And only through sweat spin my success! ‘May God let your labors succeed!’ was your constant blessing, Thus you laid the foundations of a clear work ethic in our making. ‘If I work hard I can make it’, this was the life- long lesson for taking, Cheating in exams- never: the idea never got into our heads; no faking! The seeds of love and kindness in our hearts that you planted, They help us live in harmony today and stay contented. You firmly taught us not to hurt anyone, not least the poor, ‘For their Lord is there taking care; beware, not be a fool.’ You taught me not to utter a bad or foul word, That this will spoil my character and someone may get hurt. If today in the world Mom I can stand on my feet, It is due to that character you help me build. You taught me not to spread my hand to beg or ask, ‘Instead dear, keep your hand such, it is ready to give and part.’ ‘May you feed lakhs!’ she often used to pray; ‘There is no treasure greater than contentment’ she would always say. She taught us ‘O dears! Don’t you ever feel proud!’ ‘Pride leads to hell, the Lord doesn’t love who are proud.’ ‘Live humbly, ever remembering and feeling Him with you,’ ‘You are never alone; He is always with you!’ Anil

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Neenu

16 Sep, 2011

On Biji's B'day, i invoke the Almighty to add luster to the galaxy of immortal souls. She has left behind love, sacrifice, compassion & blessings for all her kith & kin. Let her shine in that galaxy forever and make it more glorious. Our real homage'll be to follow her message of LOVE & PEACE............ Surinder & Kusum with wet eyes

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Anilkchawla

16 Sep, 2011

It is a strange coincidence that today 16th September is Bauji's death anniversary. Biji and Bauji complemented each other and made for us a complete package of great parents. Bauji was blessed with divine qualities like bravery, uprightness, truthfulness and honesty. Many attempts were made to bribe him in his office but he never succumbed to them even he had to pay a personal price for that. He started home satsangs of Ramayana and also introduced us to the great epic," Yoga Vashishtha." He was a very regular Yoga practitioner. He helped Biji in her domestic chores also. Often we went to picnics and walks with both Biji and Bauji together in the nearby parks in the town. We feel blessed in having them as our parents.May God rest their souls in eternal peace!

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Ansh Ranvir Vohra

16 Sep, 2011

Its been, as you said, four years since Biji left us. But I'm one of the few fortunate kids in the family to have had spent time with her. I still remember, as thought it was yesterday, her hugging me, kissing my cheeks lovingly and showering my with blessings. "Ma sadke, lambi umar ho, khush raho." Being a child and nearly not mature enough back then, I never understood that this was more than a routine, so much more. I know now, that every word came straight from the heart. Now that we're all growing up and facing life..all of us..me, Divam, Aakash, we need Biji's love and blessings more than ever. And even though she is not physically present, I know she's up there and just the thought of her gives me, and I'm sure a lot of others, the strength to move on. Thank you, for reminding us just how amazing a human being Biji was. Having seen her for so many years, and hearing her stories from my grandparents, I can relate to what you've written. And so can mom, who's sobbing right now. We love you Biji. All of us.

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Anilkchawla

16 Sep, 2011

Biji, O Biji! So simple yet so deep. The fountainhead of spirituality. A guide to her children and grandchildren about the way of life by setting personal example of simplicity combined with profundity.Kind welcoming and accepting looks, blessings on lips, evergreen smile despite pains and physical problems galore.No putting up,no pretensions, honesty in dealing and yet readiness to serve, never ready to hurt, feeling hurt if believing someone is hurt,.Always in acceptance of what is. Never complaining. Taking all happenings as His will. These seem to be the secrets of a perpetual divine, blessing smile. There must be a deep inner realization of human oneness that is why in her last moment she uttered and repeated the words that the world is my family and I have no Attraction or repulsion for anyone. Heaven must be blessed to receive Biji.

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